Feel like happiness is lost some times thinking will it come back and stay all the time. On and off depressed wanting to just cry alot but not wanting ppl to know you are crying or have been. Some times your happy for a few mins or few hours then its gone. You do somethings that make you happy but when it all over your sad and back in depressed mode. Its like Never ending cycle of it and can’t fight it off. Pills wont help.